you can't fool me i saw you when you came out

I have always wanted to be a parent. whatever that means. but it's something that for reasons obvious and not, is completely not attainable for me. the least of which reasons being my near insanity :)

But, when those close to me began thier lives as parents - it's easy to see what a blessing it can be, what a gift and all those other wonderful terms. To hold a whole person in your arms, they being completely dependant.

I guess, even tho i'm 25, i've never been around a 'baby' before... well at least not until 6 months ago :)

But it's something i enjoy probably above most other things, probably more than i enjoy complete isolation :)

Today was a big old day of babies, laughing, crying, shatting themselves - and me thinking how perfect the whole thing is.

I must admit i enjoyed handing the little tackers back... :)

Anyway - now to get back to my shiny life with no promise of offspring... and no expectation for that matter.